Edgy discovery

Do you know how I feel right now ? nahh , of course you don't , silly me , eheh . I'm in a huge , enormous confusion . Not actually a confusion , let me tell you , it's sort off a dilemma , understand me ? better don't . With my mood swinging , it'll never solve , haih . It's better if you kill me , right ? I'm smiling every second nowadays . see , I'm smiling :)   It's better to know how to solve it , if I know the problems . But , now , unfortunately  I didn't . I have too many doubts , way too many . I , too can't get rid the 'what if' questions . There's too many things that I need to figure out . and I'm just terrified to well known the answer or maybe I'm just too coward or something . Well , I should stand up and keep my head's up . I'm  trying to be open-minded and yes , now I'm being . If luck's strikes me then , I'll be fine , always :)